Growing Up And Then Some More...
Note: This was originally posted on my LiveJournal I decided that it was good enough to post on my blogger. I sort of wanted to spread it around to those who don't visit my LJ.
'tis been a long time since I got into the mood to right something thoughful and well, hopefully something nice. This is most probably gonna be one of my rare serious posts. Don't expect much but I'm just in the mood to write something good.
I guess I'll begin by saying that I'm not in a depressed or bummed out mood. This isn't one of those depressed-so-i'm-gonna-blog-so-I-can-get-it-out-of-my-system post. It's about things that I've noticed in the years that I've been alive and well, growing.
I'm nineteen, hardly an adult, nor am I a snotty nosed brat. I can proudly say that I've seen my share of what the world can throw at you. Well, in the past few days I've begun to realize that the fact that I'm going to face one hell of a challenge (by God, or by the powers that be.) has made me realize, no matter how old or ancient I feel, I'm still but a mere child. I don't have a career, I don't have a family that I have to support. Yes, that will come in good time. However, that made me think, "Did I make the most of my carefree childhood/teenage years?"
I first thought I did, then, my brain decided to think a bit more and I realized that I didn't. My wild chase after this so-called "Adult Life" was nothing more than a waste. Yeah, I'm more or less mature, but not enough. I forsee that I'm gonna be forced to stand on my own two feet very very soon and the trials and tribulations of it will be tough as nails. I'm not sure if I'm thinking to deep into this but I sure as hell realize that a good amount of people I know have yet to see this. Some think that age shows how mature they are, some even use it as a way to command others. That's a load of bull. I've seen people older than me act like kids. It's fine if you admit that you're still immature, hell, I admit that I'm still a fledgling. It's all cool as long as you realize it. Those who don't... well, that's just sad. You gotta admit that you have a problem before you solve it.
Then comes the case of loneliness. For the record, I'm not talking about myself here, it concerns a close friend of mine. I used to be lonely, it took a lot of time to come to terms with it and it took an even longer time to realize who were my friends. Those that are there for you. Those who care. Those that become your moral compass. As one friend put it, "I don't have a lot of friends BUT I have a lot of accquaintances." That's a nice quote.
How do you define the feeling of being 'lonely'? Do you need a girlfriend/boyfriend? Do you need someone to lean on? Do you need people to constantly see you and talk to you? Having a significant other is great, but it ain't the ultimate solution. I prefer to have people who you can rely on in times of need. For example, let's say I had a bad day, I post it on my blog, the most I'll get is maybe a reply that goes:-
Something like that. Yeah, it's sort of good. Then there are those who are amazing, those who rarely comment and say something long and thoughtful. Those who read it and call you up. Those who send you a private message asking if you're alright. Those are rare gems. Mates that touch the center of your heart and make you feel warm and fuzzy. You don't even have to maintain constant contact with them but the connection is there. You click. Those are the ones you keep for life. Maybe, if the fates decide so, you might lose a few, but there'll still be a connection, a bond, it might not be as strong as last time but it's still there, waiting to be strengthened again.
Well, think about it. I may sound like I'm not making much sense but to me, it makes perfect sense. This post came to light due to a friend feeling lonely. I'll just say this to ya mate, you might lose a moral compass but time will be the judge of that. Yeah, you are one of the lucky few who stuck with me through thick and thin. I have a lot of people who are my moral compass coz I'm the type who values his friends. So, you, my brother, should chill and find a way to start helping yourself.
Peace out.
Here's a funny quote that popped to mind,
" PS: That's what the alphabet would be without Q and R. "
