The Murdered Past has touched down
Oh-ho, today's post will most probably make me look like a real asshole of a boyfriend but nowadays, i don't really bother with people's comment on how I treat my girlfriend.
First of all, ladies and gentlemen, about a month ago, I started a 'secret' blog: The Murdered Past.
The purpose of me creating it was to vent out any anger caused by my bumbling/dense girlfriend. You'll have to excuse my language today as I'm feeling rather miffed by today's events. Anyways, the blog also had something to do about how I failed in keeping old friendships together as I was too caught up in 'love' which now that i think about it was nothing more than puppy love. Well, this secret didn't last too long as Lina (my girlfriend if you haven't been following this rundown blog) found it when she was browsing through my bookmarks. Ever since that happened, I pretty much decided that blogging was not private enough, it was more of a...... comical diary one might say.
So, I, more or less stopped blogging. However, today is an exception as I decided this would be one of the easiest ways to get her to bloody listen to some old-fashioned sense. So here is how it goes:-
My dear, please get it into you thick skull that saying "Sorry" a hundred billion times doesn't cut it. Instead, it lowers the impact of such a word. Sorry should be used only in emergencies.
OR
"I apologize for everything that I've done up till now and I'm sorry for fucking up our friendship."
NOT
"I'm sorry lah."
I won't even go into today's events as that one shall be left to you. Blaming other's won't help as there were many ways you could have lessened the impact. It's good that you've reduced the number of times that you shed you tears but crying less doesn't seem to fix much of your faults that you promised countless times to fix and for goodness sakes, you keep on ranting about how you life sucks and you repeat the whole seperated family thing like it was going out of style. That is typical LiveJournal.com shit. Other people have it worse, and they seem to be coping just fine and don't thing cutting or hurting yourself seems to be solving anything. I hope that this rant will make you face reality in it's fullest. Learn to make the best of a horrible situation. Even your eldest sister doesn't seem to be ranting about your parent's breakup. Damn. Do you realize how low you've sunk?
I don't know why you depend so heavily on me. It's as if your whole existence would dissappear if I went away. Remember, the number one thing in life is You and not me or anybody for that matter. Hell, it's so obvious I don't know why I typing this. It's the same with me, if you left, I'd just deal with it and get on with my life. No bloody point pining over anything. I couldn't be bothered.
You wonder why I haven't broken up with you if I easily get angry at the things you say or do. Well, the answer is simple, I'm being practical with our relationship, you're still a mere chick(as in the offspring of a bird) and I don't think that you're ready to handle your heart being splintered to pieces. What with SPM and all. Ah, I believe at this point in the post a lot of people are going to give me a piece of their mind. Well, unless you're my close friend that actually knows/understands the shit I'm going thru, do fuck off and mind your own bloody business.
Well, that's that for today. Honestly, I had a pretty good day today, save for this evening's scene but other than that, it was simply lovely.
Remember kids, make the best of what you have and stay smart.
