Sleep comes to the lucky bastards.
Indeed it does. I'm lucky when it comes to certain things but sleep has always been one of the few things that I rarely luck out on. Ah well, it was about time I did a blog entry. Most of the time I post some random things on my LiveJournal. I would usually reserve this blog for more thoughtful entries but for today, I'll turn a blind eye.
I'm currently wondering what's troubling me to the point that I can't really sleep despite the fatigue within me. I would light up a cigarette but I'm forcing myself to stop at Death Stick #6 which is a tremendous jump for me. A pack of 20s a day to a mere 6 sticks a day. Wundebar. I'm wondering if the fact that one of my best friends is leaving for Australia in just a few more days is bumming me out but I believe that his three month holiday definately made me realize who I really am and who my friends are. He's part of circle of friends that pulled me out of my depression and also on of the major links in the Melawati group of friends. Well, we had fun and it's time to go on with real life I suppose.
Then there's a slight hint of loneliness (I can hear countless people telling me to take it easy and not rush into another relationship. ::grins:: ) Well, that's terribly true but I guess I miss having somebody special but meh, Lady Luck will smile at me once more........eventually. My first real relationship was all about luck anyways. So, I suppose that luck/chance will play another significant part in the next one.
I'm rambling on and on. I wonder if I sound like I'm whining? A blog is a blog I suppose, anything that comes to mind should be put to pen and paper, figuratively speaking of course. Heh, I just realized that from a mindless rant about my inability to sleep has turned into what I feel about things now. Amazing. It's like having a conversation with myself. Well, it's true that I have a certain inner voice that I converse with but haven't heard much from him in awhile. Yes, there's Jace and then there's Amir. Amir is the physical being while Jace is supposedly this wise sentient being that lives in Amir's brain. That's about it.
Well, I should stop rambling now. I feel so.... mentally unstable? ::grins::
By the way, I picked up two music CDs recently, one being DJ Krush - ? -jaku- and the other is a Drum N Bass CD, mixed by Timecode. Both are great and are my current obsessions. One for chilling and one to pump me up. Brilliant.
Peace Out.
